for some time to put my thoughts on tape.. bought a tape recorder (yes, I know, tape = lame, but I find it more reliable than digital recording + I love the ‘tape” effect on sounds ) and I have to say it freaks me out..
every time I listen to myself I tend to analyse my words, my intonation, my mistakes.. apparently I find more calm and balance in writing..
but I also find that recording myself is a good therapy regarding my stage fright.. I had to refuse the participation in a Lip Dub (a freaking lip dub!!) because I cannot control myself in front of a camera.. every time I am under attention I tend to imagine what people might think about me.. I start imagining the that’s why expressing myself through music and words is better.. (written works are not as spontaneous as spoken ones, thus I have more time to arrange ideas)

I wonder if I am beginning to get lost in the world or if the society managed to influence me enough.. I am actually having plans involving major social interactions.. parties and such.. but i am terrified because major social interactions involve the consumer society, my no. 1 enemy; should I join you by putting my mask on? appearing something you want me to be?
or should hope that the artistic spirits will soon find me, thus continuing mixing my in my own style and not giving a crap about commercial music?
of course.. I will not be reduced to pure image.. I will keep my human integrity..
[or is this feeling called growing up? because I hate its transition phase.. (why isn't everything quantized?? =_= ) ]
because I’m not christian, muslim, jewish, black, latino, gay, romanian or other defining terms.. I’m human like the rest of you..
all the philosophy about the origins of people included in the religious works are just art and should only be regarded as such, not followed in real life.. all that is different from one to another is the genetic code.. there are over 70.000.000.000.000 different combinations of the genetic code.. science discovered that.. fuck you, extremists!

look at the stars.. they tend to tell interesting stories (especially the Orion’s Belt constellation -> 3 in-line stars in the sky.. beautiful in its simplicity..)
and another lesson: always smile. because life likes taking pictures.. (this one has a subliminal message.. )

random words are flying in my head.. it’s been a long time since Order visited my brain.. i feel like the artificial intelligence in the Stealth movie..

the truth is I need someone in my life with which I can share some love.. it kinda sucks being alone.. but I can’t juggle that as well right now..
(yes, for the moment this is helping me a lot more than trying to hook up with a girl at a bar, so keep your tips to yourself)

[ok, I am losing my touch, but I blame that on the fact that a big exam is closing in.. ]

frate, Livio, Roby si George G. au cam ratat releasul Part III.. din pct meu de vedere.. parca zici ca e muzica literalmente pt drogatii de muzica, le-au dat ceva doar asa ca sa fie.. celelalte releasuri au fost mai bune.. in special primul
le asteptam si pe celelalte